That is true. It seems ironic and tragic that this poison gives you such a feeling of deadness towards God, or any spiritual feelings at all.

Sometimes it's all people can do is to get up and actually exist each day. I have no feelings really. It is awful to feel "nothing" almost. Sometimes I can look at members of my family, but I dont tend to feel love, yet I know I must love them. I dont quite understand that and it makes you feel very cold as a human being.

I wish I could "feel". Unfortunatey though I feel grief, depression and anger, but not well being, sense of feeling alive, love, joy etc. It's incredible what this toxin is capable of doing.