Hi

I grew up in a christian home and believed for mny years until I got sick, for so long I just couldnt bring myself to pray or even think about God, He just seemed so far away, i struggled daily with the anger and rage as well and the guilt of being so distant from God and the confusion of just not understanding what had happened to draw me away after we were so close and why i so desperately wanted to end the life that he had given me.

Right now having recovered, I feel closer to HIm and more spiritual then I ever have in mylife, I am so spiritually happy and at peace with everything around me. I cant believe how this poison draws you away and kills your faith

Dont give up, He will always be there no matter how far away He feels and no matter what your thoughts are right now, He knows its not whats on your heart. He will never leave you nor forsake you. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />