Anon I have read your post, and I wonder if you have childen. Mine are23, 18, and 12. I hsvre numerous converstions with sbout my condition and how muvh pain Im going through and they all understand. They all support me in any choice I make cos theyve dwitnessed the suffering. Theyve all stated that they will always love whatever I decide to do. One thing I know I have taught my children not to judge others and they dont. So dont give me this crap about Evie getting married and stuff. One thing I cant stand is judgemental people like youself and if you have children, then I thank God mine are ao differnt. What if I had any other terminal illness? i still dont belive you were ever as toxic as some of us., cos if you are the suffering is too much to bare. Dont dictate how my kids will react, sort your own bloody life out Tracy