Just to be clear -

guys, I never meant to say through that post that I was going to commit suicide. All I'm saying is that my brain is shutting down so much that it prevents me from even basic functioning, communicating with u, actually when I was writing that post I felt like drifting away, like I was sure I was going to be in a vegetable and that i wouldn't make it on my own, that I'd end up in an institution. This thing makes you feel like you're going to be in a coma in a matter of hours, or dead, that's how it felt that day , hence the post.

so, I really don't want to say goodbye, I will try to hang on as long as I can, but this disease seems to strike in ways you can't really predict or expect. So I don't know how much longer I can fight this. This thing is progressiveley taking over of you, and you can't do anything about it. And I'm in a really bad shape, can't comprehend what you're writing here guys, have the brain of a 10yo.

still thanx for everything