Hi Anon, I know you were doing your best to get people to remove the idea of suicide from their thoughts and think of their loved ones. Considering this has happened to you, it is no wonder at all that you feel so strongly about it and the pain you must have felt and feel for having your own parent do this is unimaginable.

one can only express sympathy, but not empathy unless they too have had this occur. Suicide is I think probably the most horrific loss anybody could experience with a loved one. Questions never answered and the constant "if onlys" or 'what if" and the mixture of confusion, grief, anger, etc etc.

I think MOST people consider their loved ones when suicide enters their heads which is why so many are hanging on in spite of such horrific suffering. So many have lost their joy and lives because of toxicity, yet because of those around them, they are pretty much trying to exist regardless.

Problem with mercury and other similar toxicities is that it works directly on the mind to actually CAUSE suicidal thoughts. Not only does it cause suffering beyond belief, but directly causes suicidal urges and this is what makes Hal Huggins so angry about this poison and other similar ones because of what it does to a human being. Often, when in such agony and a mind that can scarsely think straight, a person can end their life. Not through selfishness, but sheer unadulterated agony. I dont know how many times I have prepared myself for suciide, only to fight against it, like I'm fighting some other entity and not really myself. It makes me sick to my gut when I consider how many times I could have done it. To think of my parents and family is another totally gut wrenching reality and what that would do to them. To be torn between pain beyond belief, yet trying to think of others is what some people cannot imagine unless they have been there.

Unfortunately some people end up buckling under the agony and do the unthinkable. Because I am still here, never makes me feel complacant or superior. If anything< i feel humble and always fearful that I am not above doing the same thing and am as human and frail as they are. If only they had been given enough, just enough peace of mind or a little bit of extra health, many of them would never have considered it, let alone done it. THEY are the victims becuase of an unrelenting, unforgiving poison that often removes the person from rational and logical thought and those left behind are also the victims of this toxicity also because of the actions it had on their loved one who would no doubt never normally, even under typical stresses of life would ever have done this.

In fact, I know people who have ended their life simply because they found a situation stressful and opted out. This cannot really be compared to direct toxins on the brain.