Well i'm actually surprised to hear you have been there, because the way you come across doesn't correlate that you know the ACTUAL extent of mental/emotional torture that drives a person to suicide, even if it's the last thing they want to do. I have massive sympathy for anyone who's taken their own life. Just because i'm here today, doesn't make me any stronger than them, it just means i may have more resources, such as understanding people around me, or even having the net, which many years ago people didn't have to help them understand why they are so suicidal. Who said you were banned from the forum? If i'm recovered i'll still be here, supporting people and not suggesting they are cowards if they take their own life.