I am there too my brain is also shuttin down rapidly and cant find anyone to help. I have made provisions for my youngest daughter and provisions for how I intend to leave this world as quickly and comfortably as possible. I dont know why things havnt worked for some us. Maybe its just meant to be that way. You know how much I think of you Jinx and Aaron. Youve helped me when family and friends have turned their backs. I cant pray cos I dont believe in God. I dont know where we go or if anywhere, but I go with the comfort Ive brought 3 other fantastic people into this world who have shown much love to me. I lost one of my dearest friends this year to suicide and I miss him a lot. He suffered most of his life. Maybe things are mapped out for us. I always believed I would die young. I hope you find peace Jinx, the peace we havnt had for a long time. I will be thinking of you till the end. I wish everybody else a fantastic recovery, but I join you in your saying goodbye, I can do no more. Best wishes and all the love in the world to everyone on here, as youve done your best to help me. xxxxxx Tracy