Am out of hospital, they were useless and pretty nasty. They thought I was making ait all up and told me I was lazy. It was a waste of time cos I didnt get tested for C=DIF I came out by the GP which luckily I dont have. Its weitd I can have bursts when I feel almost human and then bang I change so quickly and just want to cry and dont feel like I belong in this world. I just wish th GP I saw today was mine, he was very kind and didnt even question the Mercury issue, he said I must get someone to check my levels. I have a new GP now as the other one was a b*****y waste of space, but I cant change cos the other guy lives out of town, altough I could ask him to contact him. I cant belive that he was so knowledgable about Mercury. He even said my infected tooth probably sent the bacteria to my spine and brain. Im going to make equires at another hospital where I was diagnosed with ME cos now they have a special unit and I want to know what tests they carry out. I think your right guys this is the wort possible illness in the world, mostly cos your suffering physically and mentally and people just think your bonkers. Its crazy my daughter came home and we were eating dinner and she was talking to Keith and all of a sudden I felt so far away just like I didnt belong and all of a sudden the thought came into my head how nice it would be to go to the sea and keep on swimming till you know you cant get back. Where the hell does it all come from? I actually did that last year it took me nearly all day to get there and i booked into a bed and breakfast and just sat on my own on the beach. It was so peacful, then the next day went home. Dont think I d have the guts or energy to do it now! And ay Jinx I hope your right, they need to get a b****y move on before its too late for some of us. Stll at least the seas getting warmer. It was weird when I was there I even went for dinner but I remember thinking well if I go nuts who the hell knows me round here anyway. And your so right Nicola Ive lost so many friends and family now. My dad has left my mum again and she still has C-DIF they cant do anything else. God I hope the doctors right and it does come out, he seem to be saying that they already know about Mercury poisoning from amalgams so I suppose we'll just have to keep fightin for now till they open somewhere for us to go and we can all be mad-Hatters together. Take you too and keep in touch, be thinking of you hugs Tracy