Blicero, I totally understand what you are saying about this not being you. I was not like this either. When I think about it, I don't feel happiness or excitement either, my feelings for love and affection have been blunted. I think the more of a fog you are in, the more blunted the feelings.

I also understand your frustration with the flu shot. I think my symptoms actually started years ago when I was in college and had to get a MMR shot with thimerisol because there was an outbreak on the campus. But my emotions actually became totally blunted after eating a lot of tuna years later and not realizing what it can do to you. Sometimes I think, if only we would have known then what we know now...

I hope detox helps you to get this back.