Jinx please read Dr claire weeks self help for nerves. I really think this will help you cope with what your going through or buy the CD dvds..

It wille explain everything thats happening to you and why and once you understand you will be shocked. You seem to keep holding onto fears of health based issues without realising and not knowing why you get symptoms or whats causing them or what can happen or has happenned to others. This fear can make more problems and even just accepting the problem wont make the symptoms go...its complicated but very helpful for me.. not sure if it may be of help but please look into it as any thing I will beleive it may help you even the slightest.