bex truth is I don't really understand you... my higher brain functions, front of my brain, are stuck, they don't. I just CAN'T think.... i'm completely bonkers... and with each day is worse...

i know I meet the criteria for schizophrenia now, I just can't stop it, control it...

i dont have a sound mind anymore... it's like the lights went off....

it's so humiliating....

but thanx for reply