When a few people post as anon, doesn't make it easy to know who is saying what. So don't take those comments personally, it was aimed at the other anonymous.

I hope that maybe some suggestions on this forum will be of help to you. And be encouraged that people can and often do recover. Just ask anything on here, any concerns at all and usually someone has already been down that path and can pass onto what helped them or what may have harmed them.