We believe you. It's been a hard road for you. Years ago, I had a friend say something when I was hurting. She said to get down on my knees and open my out to God. Tell him everything; your worries, how you worry about your health, but more so...you worry about your family, that you need his strength and his direction to find the right treatment. Pray like you've never prayed before. Please don't get off this forum until you feel differently. I'll stay on until someone else comes on that you can talk to. Please, Tracy.