I've had a few good days in the last couple of weeks but this is very tough. A week ago I was feeling good but I broke down and I ate a piece of chocolate cake. I don't know if that did it but I was down the rest of the week after that.

Most of Saturday was good but in the evening I started spinning out again which was very discouraging. I liken that to Russ' analogy of a roller coaster drive.

Otherwise I have stuck to my new diet and I have lost 20-25 pounds since I started and people say that I look good. The chronic pain and fatigue that I was experiencing has probably been cut almost in half. However, mentally I'm still a mess and I have a long way to go.