Tracy, I am so sorry for your loss. Having suffered a loss 5 years ago, I feel for what you are going through. My mother had asthma since she was a child and the suffering that you endure is unbelievable.

As for anon, they seem to get some twisted pleasure from inflicting pain on someone who is already grieving. Just a thought, there is someone who has been banned from more than one forum, because they go on and try to cause trouble. For some reason, they like shocking other people. It could be the same person; sometimes I wonder if it's more than one person (eg. kids whose parents aren't watching their Internet activity). And it could be Jill, or Jill is this person.

Again, I'm so sorry for your pain, Tracy. My experience was that the pain did lessen in time, but it felt like forever. I hope that you can draw strength from the caring individuals on this thread. The others aren't worth the time to answer their accusations. Take care.