hi everyone, just wanted to say I'm in the exact situation as tracy is and sorry for the morbid post as well, but I'm really losing my mind, have no control over my head anymore, today i got up and sat there for half an hour staring at one point, than had trouble washing and dressing myself, I'm forgetting how to use objects like spoon, kettle etc... I can't really recall what I have been doing the last days, or the chronology of it... every day is worse... I'm losing contact with reality guys, plus I'm having problems walking and the worse thing about it is that I think all of it is brain mercury (seriously) which means that once I become a vegetable in a matter of days or weeks , even once my body detoxes (if it gets a chance), things will be looking bad for me anyway, as my brain will be stuck with mercury. My head feels as if it has been filled with concrete.

I had a psychosis 2 days ago, had the urge to jump of the window or do sthg to my family, god...

I just cry all day to my mother that it can't be the end, not like this, but my mother tries to have faith that it all will be ok, I know she's on the verge too, but the truth is that everyday is WORSE, WORSE WORSE!!!!!!!!!

I tried a one day dmsa round per bex's reccommenadtion (15mg or so) it seemed to help in stabilizing but also increasing brain mercury, I guess that's how it feels at least, so i don't know it to take it at all, since i still have 5 filings (those who know my story know). I took 25mg dmsa 3h ago and it helped me write this post I guess, bnut I don't know anymore what's helping and what isn't.

oh and yesterday i had tooth extracted with one filling, so that leaves me with 2 bigger fillings and 2 small ones , am scechuled to have the two former teeth extracted on may 10th but I don't know if I will last that long.

I guess i want to say goodbye if I dont make it, it seriously is THAT BAD... and thanx to everybody, esp to bex, tracy, and sandi...

(ps. the dentis I went to yesterday has been recently diagnosed with MS , gee wonder where that came from... plus she was exhibiting some mercury behavioral traits but it could be my head)

Mike