Hi Smitho, same here. Yep, being told I'm boring because I never want to go anywhere. Or just me being freaked out and weird. None of it was myself or my fault, and I know that, so I have no guilt anymore. I lost relationships/friendships because of it, plus failed to get into them because of the same thing.

It's just me and my family now. And though that hurts in a way, I'd like to be like other people and be in a relationship, I know full well I wouldn't handle that pressure to be "normal". This way, I don't have to. I just basically can't.

The only people I can relate to are on this forum. It's really amazing to read because it feels like i'm just reading myself. the pains, desires, frustrations, grief, torments, the whole deal.