Thankyou I know people on the forum say these things from the heart because they understand the feelings we all express its so hard trying to explain to your family members how much you still care and love them but sometimes you feel so detatched from reality you cant explain how it feels because most of the time you dont even understand it yourself I guess Im having a really bad day and have cried a lot for the first time I love my family so much and want myself back but dont really know where to start I kind of feel really detatched from the real world at the moment