does anyone else fell like theyve completely lost theirselves like your self you were as completely gone and your left with this kind of shell you dont even recognise. Thats how I feel and I grieve for who I was how I was and what I was. I cry all the time for the person my family have lost and really cant see that person coming back Im trying to do evverything I can but nothing seems to work and Im so tired of trying and failing. I dont know how the hell this happened any more and I dont understand anything

I feel so bad for you Tracy, as you aren't getting the answers that you deserve from medical professionals. It sounds like you have not spared expense in trying to get help.

Yes, I have felt like I changed so much that I wasn't even myself before. It was sad. Usually, when I felt like it was more than I could stand something would come along and I would get relief. I hope that someone will come your way who will have solutions to these problems.

Thankyou I know people on the forum say these things from the heart because they understand the feelings we all express its so hard trying to explain to your family members how much you still care and love them but sometimes you feel so detatched from reality you cant explain how it feels because most of the time you dont even understand it yourself I guess Im having a really bad day and have cried a lot for the first time I love my family so much and want myself back but dont really know where to start I kind of feel really detatched from the real world at the moment

At times i feel lost and feel that life is hopeless. i have been crying on and off today, its hard when the kids are home from school and they catch you crying, i feel like a child, its crazy.

Haven't read all your posts but read enough to say, Tracy, your physical symptons are exactly like mine, which is verified mercury poisoning, plus I have other metals which are not as high as the mercury but they are enough to raise eyebrows.

You need to find an integrative medical specialist who uses things like EDTA or DMSA to begin chelating, even if you still have amalgam fillings, which need to be removed if you do have them. A good integrative med Dr will walk you through the chelation and be there for you.

Personally i don't think I could make it through the day without chlorella to contually clean my blood. I ordered the Yeayama powdered type, maybe they sell it here too, but it's not all that expensiive and will probably help you enormously. I mix it with some psyllium fiber and water and drink it throughout the day, every few hours, about 1/2-1 teaspoon. If I miss a day I regret it the next very much. i still have amalgams or would probably be better by now but I was way too sick to even consider removal up until this point. I have been getting the IV EDTA for about 5 weeks and am much better. But the chlorella is my personal base for everyting, it will continally bind mercury in your stomach and help clean your blood so that you aren't constantly reabsorbing the mercury. It may also be possible to buy DMSA on the net, the DMSA is excellent for mercury, I us about 100 mg a day, maybe do 2 days in a row like that and then take a day or two off and remineralize with supplements. The DMSA is suppose to be one of the most effective oral chelators and won't hurt your kidneys. Be sure to drink enough water. Cilantro wlll also chelate but i am not sure the chlorella binds enough of it, so from my experience use the DMSA with chlorella and cilantro if you want to aggressively chelate on your own.

You need to find an intgrative med specialist, someone who deals with heavy metal toxicity. You may also have a combo of lead and other things with the mercury which make you feel this way. Personally, I wdo not recommend anything except the chlorella without a physician to keep an eye on you because you also need to rebuild nutrients, but if funds for the MD are short since you have already been seeing Dr's, then it is probably better to do the DMSA and chlorella rather than suffer. Follow directions about the DMSA to the tee. And be sure to use a real good multivitamin-mineral supplement on days off. Vitamin C is also very helpful..