i understand you pain Aaron I am suffering so much the infection I have has taken over my body and brain I can hardly function there is very little left of me I cry that no one seems to be able to help the physical pain is beyond all ive ever experienced i question what ive done and still trying to cling to the hope that someone will save me but i dont think its likey now we did not do this to ourselves and if i decide to give in which at the moment is highly likely i believe good would forgive us because he knows how hard weve tried and salvation will be ther for us we are the victims not the criminals i have never felt so ill in my life and i know he would forgive me if i decide icant take any more loVE TRACY