I prayed to God this morning for people here and my family for putting up with me, but i cant seem to go into a church at the moment, i said to myself i will when im totally better for at least 6 mths, its like everything washes over me and the reason is because i have 2 lovely little girls who see their mum ill, and they dont deserve it, i want to go to work and do the best for them and be normal but mercury has stopped me doing it, if i had known i would be like this, i wouldnt have had children, its mostly guilt.
I thank God that i didnt get ill when they were small as i wouldnt have coped at all.