definately every God believing person has abandoned me through this illness, that cant be right can it. No one has comfoted me or given me words of strength its just like they dont want to know or have no idea what to say my dad was brought up as a devout christian now he believes theres nothing there and I tend to believe him and thats not the Mercury talking. Why should we cling to something we cant see feel or get no repsonse from, its just a crutch to hold on to and I beleive when we're gone we're gone. Man alone has created all the evil in this world of his own doing its got nothing to do with a higher power of any sort.