As a believer myself, this has been profound. I've never known such disconnection and I feel like the telephone has been taken off the hook in that regard. It feels like I get an engaged signal constantly. I find I can't pray like I used to, I don't feel a thing and feel as though i'm a bad person and/or I'm just being ignored or punished or both.

I'm basically a spiritual cripple these days. God feels like he's out of touch, out of reach.