Oh yes! how I long for the feelings of actually feeling like "me", instead of feeling like I'm on some drug. This is the nature of mercury, or in fact other toxins also on normal functioning.

I get 'moments" of clarity and thinking "wow is this how it feels? but they disappear fast. It is a relief in a way to hear it from others on here, because otherwise I'd feel far worse and more isolated. So yeah you're not alone.

The feelings of impending doom, loss of interest and motivation unfortunately tends to go with the territory.