Thanks for the post Detoxer. It gives me some hope which I desperately need at the moment as all my symptoms have increased severely over the last few weeks,especially the mental ones. I have been extremely depresses and suicidal and to be honest I dont know how I get through each day. I know I have only been ill for two and a half years and for Chris its been longer. Chris you must be very strong in some ways. I know theres been so many times Ive just wanted to give in. Although kids have stopped me from being 6ft under, I still feel this woverwhelming guilt at not having more input in their lives, but sometimes its just a struggle to keep myself alive. I worry about so many things, like E vie not bothering with homework and how she remembers how I was. Im not a very strong willed person any more and dont always stick to the diet and still have the odd fag, even though I know I shouldnt. God I hope this works for me too cos its the only thing Ive got to hang on to now. Thanks for sharing your experience. Sorry ranted on had a particularly bad day. Fingers crossed for all three of us. love and best wishes Tracy