jinx i can relate to you totally i have had a very insane day where i couldnt even bring myself to come out of my room to top it alll ive had people telling me what a burden i am to them and ruining their lives i got very close to the edge today and found mself siting slicing my hands with aknife but thats where it ended then i sobbed on my sons shoulder and said where the hell have i gone my mind is just nothing any more and im not real