Dude im really sorry to hear but listen well.

I to have been through a similar situation although its different I have thought very similar things.

I believe the toxicity is a big part of the problem but their is also little psychological causes that can make things so much worse.

I too used to think I was going insane and worried if I was to be on medication for life and not functioning, or worried about being a failure to my family as they worry about me and ruining their life. Also worrying about not knowing what is exactly wrong or whats working and validity of tests and doctors etc.

These destructive thoughts and habits work without you conciously realising your thinking them. I too still suffer but am trying to research anf get as much knowledge as I can. and feeling alot better then I have been.

Its so difficult with contradicting information with people leading you one way while others say something else. But try not to get caught up in all of it.

PLEASE JUST REMEMBER THIS:

If your insane and losing your memory etc, you wouldnt have be able to post on here the way you do as

And it seems (possibly)you are unconciously worrying about going insane.(I too had sufferred this without realising.

I just hope this can help you even the slightest.

I recommend get your fillings out from a good dentist so you wont have that worry about the mercury causing your problems. (Im still saving up to do this and going to london el-essawary).

Try and eat a good diet but dont worry if you cheat its not a bad thing. Just keep at it. Diet can heal so many contributing problems such as leaky gut, nutritional problems etc.

And taking a good supplement with coiloderal minerals(Maximol) and ascorbic acid powder.

You can overcome a whole lot of problems and I plan on going through this path.

Wish everyone the best of luck