Hey Jinx, this is extremely distressing to read and this is the kind of stuff that adds to my anger about what this stuff does to the human brain.

The insanity it brings is well known. A naturopath told me that he is friends with a mental health nurse in Australia and she admitted to him on the private that they KNOW that some of these patients are mercury toxic and they simply shut them off and drug them up because they don't know how else to deal with them.

For some reason she is able to spot them.

The mercury is insane, not yourself. Unfortunately it works through your mind, so you will feel and display it. It can do anything and is torturous.

I have threatened my 75 year old father with physical violence in the past more than once. I was close to throwing a cup of boiling tea at him, and held it over him. I mean I knew what I was doing was insane, but I was shaking and I dind't seem able to calm down or think enough. I didn't go further, but each time I lost it, I came closer and closer to doing something.

I have put holes in my bedroom door and wall from rage. I have spent time in my wardrobe screaming non stop, salivating into a bowl and going into almost a fit. If anybody saw this, I woudl have been carted away. I have to go into my wardrobe so the neighbours do not hear my screaming. I still think they must though.

I have been terrified of my own thoughts, afraid of people, afraid of conversation. Insane thinking that I could not possibly control, even though I knew it was crazy. Fearfulness that was inexplicable. Unable to read books, or concentrate. Wanting to die constantly. Unable to function. Lying in bed a lot or curling up in a foetal position. Exhaustion or being hyped up.

The tortures of mercury are numerous and extreme and what it can do is beyond what a person can readily describe to someone else who doesn't have this.

Is anything going to be done about those remaining amalgams? and are you on any proper diet to help support your body/brain? This is crucial. It is that crucial that you do ONE thing wrong dietry wise and that can be enough to set a person off on insantiy street when you have toxins already rushing around your mind/body/liver. I know because I cannot do one thing out of place. It's all I can do, even then I'm bordering and on the edge. Though I have no amalgams now, I have other toxins and still believe I am mercury toxic, but I don't respond to chelation anymore due to other problems occuring.

Jinx, right now in your state there is little you can do. But I STRONGLY advise you to not touch sugar in any form, no even natural sugars like honey, fruit, milk. Treat those things right now as your enemy. This includes grain/gluten. Start consuming things that will help tissue repair and the brain like proper fats. You will probably desperately need them and I mean get into having butter (real butter, not crap alternatives), the good fats like coconut oil, olive oil, even lard, I mean even eating the fat with meat. Fats are required for tissue repair, brain, bile production, the lot. And get a fish oil (mercury free), cod liver oil is probably the best. Consume eggs, meat, chicken, safe vegetables that are not high in natural sugar (like potatoes are bad).

Supporting your glutathione levels would be crucial too. Selenium can help (but some react to it), undenatured whey powder, vitamin C, etc.

Mainly, at this point support with diet and then look at getting those amalgams removed thoroughly by a biologic dentist if/when you can. That's just my view.

To say hang in there sounds kind of pat, so I don't know what to say because many of us have been there and are there. Some differing from others, but going through a lot of suffering. But please try and hang on.