Jinx I understand all this when I took the overdoses I had no rationality in my head, the things ive done you wouldnt believe. I will post them to privately. What im trying to say is you know you are poisoned , that is a rational thought no matter what any bloody doctors think. I hve seriously thought of suicide god so many times this week but do we let the buggers win. Excuse my french. Jinx every day , every hour i struggle and thats the gods honest truth if it wasnt for my family i would be 6 ft under. you need to stop arsing around with these psychologists ive been there got the T shirt theyre still trying to do it to me . You know your poisoned so how can you be insane I have given my family hell over the last 3 years, as I said ill post it privately your brains not working nor is mine where do you live get to a bloody clinic and get that crap out as soon as you can you are very intelligent thats one of the things they told me a the clinic that my brain was very intelligent and half of it isnt functioning cos of the Mercury no more psychologists they just mess your head up even more please please jinx you need to find the right de-tox and doctor monitoring you then you wont feel as if your having to handle things alone. i BET YOUR PARENTS LOVE YOU LKE MAD i know my family still believe in me though sometimes ive been the [censored] from hell tell me where you live and ill do all the research i can to find you somewhere remember on this forum were all going through the same crap and youve , including you Jinx have kept me alive.