tracy, I know I'm poisoned, that that's what's at the roots of the problem. And I think I have been one of the most stubborn patients at that clinic, claiming all the mercury things.

The thing is, toxicity has gotten to a point where I'm starting to lose my mind, my brain refuses to work on at least allowable level. And if it shut's down any more - well I'm history. I'm better now as but I know it will just last a couple more minutes before it all shuts down again, if not today than tomorrow in the morning for sure.

And I know I'm half-way there, cause I do lose contact with reality , become passive, and although i struggle to combat it I just can't do anything. I'm becoming insane because although I'm still aware of the fact that I'm really bad, it doesn't stop me from doing insane things.

I guess what would sum it up best is that I'm reaching a point where I can't take care of myself anymore.