Hello guys.

As some of you might remember, I went to a psychiatric clinic 4 weeks ago, on my family's concern, and well, I myself wanted to get MRI.

Staying there wasn't that bad imho, I wasn't taking and still haven't been given any drugs (apart from taking a tiny dose of risperidone for 2 days, after which I discontinued) - fortunetely I guess. I told them all about mercury poisoning and the doc heading the clinic figured I have paranoid schizophrenia (go figure). BUT, after all testing was done (I got an IQ score of 120 which was totally surprising to me ) both my leading doctor and the psychologist concluded that I don't have schizophrenia (which I guess I knew).

It was a relief to hear them acknowladge that. Now, 4 weeks have passed and I was about to be signed out NEXT week , after the MRI on the 7th. (That's why it took so long for me to stay there, I really wanted MRI bad but had to w8).

So I got a pass for a couple of days, came back home on Saturday, went to work on Monday. But when Tuesday morning came - I crashed. I stopped thinking straight anymore. And I mean REALLY STOPPED. I can't do any math. The frontal and temporal lobes of my brain feel completely STUCK. MY BRAIN IS SHUTTING DOWN. Have no access to words. can't handle objects anymore. I see I'm at the verge of doing something bad to myself and maybe others (I wanted to hit a lady in a store today because she got in my way moving too slow). I can't judge anymore what's real, what's right and what isn't. My memory is almost non-existant. And I see myself getting worse each day.

I strayed (a lot) from the candida diet the last week I was there. It may have been a contribution.
I don't know what happenned, I have been taking selenium zinc, etc but they don't help anymore. I drink LITRES of water, I'm doing enemas, NOTHING HELPS!!! I'M CONTINOUSLY GETTING WORSE.

And I have to get back there anyway, either to sign myself out, or to get the damn MRI.

I've ordered NCD today as my last resort. But I don't know If I'll be well enough to even know how to start taking it by the time it gets here.
I still have 5 amalgams so can't use DMSA yet.

I've made my mother cry numerous times today and almost had a (physical) fight with my father. If the mercury thing doesn't kill me, it sure will kill my parents (who are over 60 and have health problems themsleves) indirectly through me...


Little life's irony.


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