Thanks for those kind wishes. I too have Epstein Barr virus and Cytomeglavirus. The one thing I just cant get my head around is how the symptoms vary so much from day to day and its almost as if in the morning you just know what its going to be like, even with the stuff going on with my mum and son I havnt really been depressed. But today woke uup in that very dark place where you dont want to be. Just feel numb and suicidal thoughts. How does it keep changing I mean you would think if you were going to be depressed it would be there all the time but that dosent happen with me. Last night I was laughing and joking with the nurses in the hospital and then today like this just dont understand. I am still on the pred Niclola and 2 sleeping tabs but still only get about an hour and have really bad night sweats again its the pits Tracy