Thankyou Dr Hesham for that post. I am sorry that things got out of hand the way they did, I can only repeat I am under a great deal of family strain and am finding every day very difficult to deal with. Obviously under this kind of strain its hard to deal with your own health issues. I have tried so hard to keep going on behalf of everyone else but the strain of everything is becoming very hard to deal with. I still have a terrible sleep problem, getting probably two hours a night at the most, nothing seems to help this, and obviously my anxiety is sky high over recent events in the family. When I appear to be angry, I know it isnt specifically meant in my heart to be directed at anyone, but just the question I suppose thousands ask, why is all of this happening? I dont want to go into too much detail, but my mums symptoms are very similar to mine and of course I'm up against the NHS trying to save her. I don't want to appear to anyone to be whining and feeling sorry for myself, but friends know I am hanging on by a thread and my mind is in turmoil. To be honest its all just like one big nightmare and you wonder if and how its going to end. Tracy