I know how that goes. I smoked for 10 years. Haven't since the New Year's, but the impulse will be there. Now I just act like I smoke, like holidng a cigarette in my hand and inhaling it deep into my lungs, holding it in and then slowly exhaling, feeling a sence of relaxation and piece. But now I inhale air, so no damage is being done to my lungs. Lately finding out about the link between smoke and mercury moved me even futher with my desire to not smoke. Cigs are addicting for many reasons, but mainly nicotene. That's why you want to light up right after you put it out. A good book I've read on the topic was called "Quiting smoking is easy". Pretty much the claim is that we've been brain washed from youth into thinking that smoking is cool, sexy, and hard to quit, which the author argues are all false. Since now I think that, I haven't experienced the withdrawals I did before. The mind is really a miracle and so is the power of suggestion. Also I am learning to treat myself as I would a dear friend. Like when I mess up instead of calling myself bad names I see the inner child in me who is already physically and emotially hurt. This has been working for me so far. There are some theories that our true self is the inner child, that only needs our love and affection.