Sorry if I have already asked this, but I get everyone confused- are you guys taking lots of magnesium and and B vitamins? These (especially the mg) have been a life saver for me physically and mentally. I Know what you are saying about people not understanding or believing that the hg could cause you to act or behave a certain way. VERY frustrating. I am married though I was extremely shy also , but I think being a female is easier since you (at least back then) don't have to be the one asking and such. My husband has seen me go through so much and still if I have a toxic reaction to something I can't avoid (chemicals etc) and become irritable, withdrawn and unpleasant, he still wants to tell me that I should be able to "just have a better attitude" and "get over it". I tried explaining it to him many times, but....

On a positve note, I now have days that are so amazing that I almost want to cry to think that I lived so many years locked up in that horrible way. When I have these days (and they are happening more and more) I am just so thankful for them.

As far as wanting something that you feel isn't going to happen, just try to focus on improving your health and things will fall into place for you. It may not be what you had thought about earlier in your life, but I do believe it will be good <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />