HI Russ, for me I had amalgams removed ten years ago now, so it's more then mercury nowand gone past even that stage. Which is why I'm suicidal now daily. I was improving years ago, but had damage done to my immune system from a viral infection that has never left me, plus other issues have also occured as to cause a permanent condition. Though I strive daily, there are little to no results.

But thanks for passing on your own stuff. I'm very glad to hear you got well and triumphed over the mercury, and sorry it's stuffed up possible life long unions, but no surprise there. , a mercury toxic person is shy, volatile, changeable and often near impossible to live with. The only person who can live with me is Dad.

I can barely tolerate myself and in actual fact shut myself off from most people everyday.

I too have placed too much important on wanting to be in a relationship so I could be like other people and have kids, so much so that it gets almost obsessive, yet at the sametime I don't want it. So I go from wanting it to being afraid by it if it and really have no idea what I want, I just don't even know how to feel most of the time. Which is why it's good I never did get with anybody, as the stuff Iv'e been through has been borderline hell on earth. Not easy for my family either.

I've ruined relationships in the past. I still keep in touch with one, but goes no further now.

It's almost like everything I've asked for from God, He's either not answered or I've had the opposite and it makes it very har to continue believing at the best of times. But what else is there?

You're right, many of us are in this together! I'm so grateful to have found this forum, that I do know. And thanks a lot for the kind words and support. I really wish God would intervene in this world and things would alter drastically.

anyway, guess it's wishful thinking.

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