lol, don't worry, this should make you feel a LOT better. I have to get my 76 year old father to do a lot for me. And the 9 hour drive? He did half of it. I often wonder "who really is the old one here?".... I think I'll be in a home before he will.

He does a lot for me and it should be the other way around, but this is what this toxicity and others like it can do. Totally or almost anyway, incapacitate you, whether physically/mentally or the whole thing.

I'm also very socially nervous, so I get scared whenever I leave the house, so bad that I will pick a grocery shop that's right out of my way and more expensive, simply because not many go there.

Or if I feel too bad, sometimes I won't even go in, I'll turn around and drive back home. It's horrible and that has been with me for most of my young life now. Had moments of being healthier and suddenly this fear disappears and I feel like I can go anywhere.