Dear Jinx just read your post and made me want to cry i feel for your suffering its just so damn hard i have eaten so much crap over christmas and have had times of total brain clarity and times of actually asking myself am i insane i am so tired of going through this crap but have to think it will come right in the end i am going to rethink and replan what i am going to next its almost like going into a boxing ring without being sure who or what your fighting i have had to force myself to do so many things over the last few days because of family gatherings ect so i am extra tired and pretty down. My gp has me on anti-depressants i finally agreed cos she said if by the new year you come back and theyve made no difference you can tell me im wrong and a crap doctor and god how part of me wishes she was right and i could keep popping these little pills and everything would function normally again but i think we all know thats not likely the only thing i would say is the memory is better and slightly less brain fog but im not sure thats the tabs. Anyway im sure you dont need me ranting on but i dont know if you read my vicar post, he actually did go schizophrenic because of amalgams but he did recover. I know what im saying probably isnt of much help but i really empathize with you and i wish i had the answer for all of us i know im still trapped in that dark tunnel and cant see the light yet but all of you help me to get through each day evev if it is just day by day at the moment i am thinking of you jinx and pray you get some relief i have had phases of hallucinations, voices and seeing things but i know im still sane remember if you lose your sanity you dont realise it the mind is so complicated and delicate but wiring has gone out of sink and go back again the toxic neurologist i saw in london said the damage isnt irreversible i hope i havnt waffled on too much just know i am thinking of you and know there is an answer somewhere its just finding that right combination hugs Tracy