Hello everyone again, hope you've had good christmas days.

I posted about my onset of symtoms before after 2 fillings were removed 2 months ago and I swollowed a lot of particles and probably inhaled some too.

And I am bad. Bad food choices these christmas days probably contributed to this state (fish on christmas eve after which I got burning symptoms, plus some wheat flower and cake).

Anyway, I can't think rationally anymore. My mind is stuck, I understand what people are telling me only if they give small chunks of information. Can't see the big picture on information anymore, I know what people are trying to say only in like 1 case in 10.

I am COMPLETELY disoriented, don't know how to clean up my room anymore. Word retrieval is very difficult now, and I cant convey a longer thought unless it's, again a chunk of information. My thoughts have become totally elusive, I CAN'T speak COHERENTLY.

The very fact that I am writing to you now is fortunate, cause 80% of the time I couldn't even bring myself to it. I just walk from corner to corner not knowing what to do with myself.

My memory has greatly deteriorated, especally when it comes to vocabulary, naming things, people, but not just that. Adding, subtracting, any kind of simple math work to do is next to impossible.

I barely take care of myself: wash, dress.

And I am almost certain I have lots of mercury in my brain responsible for that - and it's in my frontal lobes:( That's where I feel slight pressure (though no pain), and when I try to think hard I feel this burning. It's like the brain matter inside me hardened.

I might have got this merc in my brain from ALA which I took 3 weeks after the dental visit when I first got the terrible symptoms - but again it wasn't much, just about 15 or 25mg. But after taking it my right hemisphere felt 'taken up' and I could feel the difference between the two - right: foggy/hardened, left-clearer though nut much more. I hen took some cilantro, but again, no more that one bunch, and later a coriander tea (I don't think it works much different in metals) and realized only a couple of days later that I don't feel the hemipshere disproporrtion as much but I am just more foggy all over.

Just took some zinc and selenium and felt it heloing as I am writing this. But again, I took some DMSA yesterday - just about 8mg, and it made a difference, I could have a small conversation with my uncle, but again I woke up again today terrible (and not even realizing I feel terrible!). So I don't know anymore what's helping me and what's not.

I would like to start Cutler's small dose chelation but I STILL have 5 mercury fillings left: 1 large one, two medium , and two small. I'm seriously considering extraction of the former three as I wouldn't survive another exposure.

What can you do guys? I can't take it anymore! I know it all comes down to the exposure from 2 months ago, but how long will mercury from that be in my body? Andy says Hg half life is up to 3 months, so what, it means I have to wait total 6 months to be on the safe side?? I know I could bring it down with dmsa, but again - fillings! And I need to have my blood mercury down so I can at least detox my brain some, god damn it!

Mike