Hi Aaron, I've been the same most of my life, though I must have had a naturally outoing personality, as I still managed to get friends (in the early days), but something always held me back.

Later on in life, I got far worse and became house bound for reasons I could not understand, I just had the urge to always hide and so it is to this day. Yes, my self esteem isn't good either. I just don't think I actually know who i really am, nor have I been given the chance.