bex,

hahaha good descrition of the "life of the party." i can totally relate. looking back and understanding this a lot better, i find that i have been pretty mechanical and robotic myself. there just isn't enough energy to express emotion. with no energy, there is no life in us. i've always forced it with my friends and did my best to have a social life. going to dance clubs, drinking, etc but i could never enjoy it like everyone else although i "looked" normal.