Yes, in person I attempt to avoid talking much of the time (I know that sounds hard to believe, given the fact I can't shut up on here <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> ).

But you try and avoid becoming the focus of anything and I'm the same. If someone even says "how are you?" my anxiety level shoots up. I mean it's honestly ridiculous, but just being spoken to can be enough and sometimes I feel like hitting them. It's totally irrational of course. And outbursts? Oh yes, I would hate to think how I would go down in a work situation. I cannot even handle family ones. I'm better kept where I am until I gain anymore stability.

Had I not had an idea of normality, I'd consider this an unfortunate mind and personality and be possibly even more screwed up by the idea.

I also can come across as devoid of personality, even my voice is robotic. Loss of animation and not the kind of person you'd invite to get the party going ..... Unless you wanted it "going" out the door <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

But again, it's much easier to understand when you recognise that these traits are actually normal given what toxicity and illness can do.

Again, no amount of psycho-analysis did a thing to help me, or antidepressant/antianxiety drugs either. IMproving health did though. Amazing, just improve your health and the mental symptoms can miraculously lift along with it....you would think they might catch on? I have been lucky that I found 3 doctors among the rest who actually believe in the relationship of sickness/toxicity and severe mental symptoms and behaviours and actually made "some" difference and that was only by using methods to improve overall health...hmmmmm.