Yes, when I'm well I forget how I feel in the depressed phase too. I hope you get back to work soon. I'm actually thinking of quitting my job and just lazing around for a couple of weeks. I'm so relaxed at home and everyone at work now thinks I'm a psycho after my lovely outbursts. I'm so annoyed with myself at losing it in front of people at work even though I didn't have any choice or control over my emotions. When everyone starts treating you as though you are a mad person it's hard to not be one. It's as if people who have not gone through this are afraid of extreme emotions. I mean yes I did cry and yell at someone but I'm not about to go on a shooting spree or something, people don't have to treat me like I'm a complete nutcase lol. The laughing is the worst, god why would anyone laugh or make fun of someone who is obviously not coping too well for what ever reason. Maybe part of this whole thing is being way to sensitive about what other people think. Anyways I'm rambling now.