Same here. The sicker I get is reflected with my behaviours as well. I seem to withdraw almost naturally and the same when feeling better, I start to emerge again...

I dont think it's so much psychology related, as to generally being mucked up by these toxins. And like myself, when I'm more healthy I can laugh almost anything off....when I get more sick, I go into my shell and react badly to almost anything.

People are very much at the mercy of their health/hormones and muck that up in some way and some uncharacterisitic behaviours often result.

I don't know about you but if I'm better I can't be anxious even if I try...just doesn't happen. It is honestly like being a puppet on a string.

So like you, I would love to know what I was really like. I've had flashes of it and it feels good. But sadly they are few and far between. I relapse into the same chronic symptoms.

Went to the doctor today and she is concerned and is gonig to be testing my hormones (properly) she asked me something really interesting. She said "Do you get the urge to sit constantly and avoid standing?" and I looked at her quite astonished and said "YES, that has been happening for 4 years now and it's like a pulling heavy sensation in the abdominal region, all around that whole area feels weird and affects my whole body' and she nodded.

This happened after virus and then further dental work wisdom tooth removal. One doc reckons is jawbone infection related and connected to the gut area (gangrene).

But who knows? All tests tend to be a bit contradictory. This happened after I was getting well from mercury poisoning and I"m fully aware it's probably infection related and could be causing hormone problems too no doubt.

This is more annoying because it's not something you can just "detox" from. It's just there 24/7. So I'm having blood and urine testing soon and will share the results.