Aaron,

I used to think about suicide every day of my life from sometime in my teen years (when my amalgams were installed) until 2000 when my amalgams were removed: That's 20 years of my life.

Now that I've recovered, I'm fighting this lie propagated by the corrupt governments and pharmaceutical companies with all the time I can find, and it feels good and is very rewarding, but I would not be doing this had I not suffered.

As a firm believer in God (Yahweh) coming from an originally very skeptical place and being a doubter in need of hard evidence (which I found), I have come to realize that part of my most valuable function in life is to tell the truth to others for their own benefit regardless of how it may feel (the truth sometimes hurts) in order to help them overcome the flood of lies propagated by the modern-day scribes, pharisees, and global merchants.

I am honored and ecstatic to be able to speak from a place of experience on this issue having suffered greatly from it so as to be believed by others that in their lives, this curse could also become a blessing.

Going through all this, I knew that I always had a choice, and it's just like a race: Quit, and all potential blessing for both ourselves and others is lost. Persist, and all potential blessings are realized with great joy.

I know it's much easier said than done, but to all who suffer, pretend it's tomorrow and see yourself realizing the blessings today. It's worth it.


[color:"brown"]"Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God. For consider him that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be wearied and faint in your minds. Ye have not yet resisted unto blood, striving against sin."[/color]
—Hebrews 12:1-4


[color:"brown"]"And the serpent cast out of his mouth water as a flood after the woman, that he might cause her to be carried away of the flood. And the earth helped the woman, and the earth opened her mouth, and swallowed up the flood which the dragon cast out of his mouth. And the dragon was wroth with the woman, and went to make war with the remnant of her seed, which keep the commandments of God, and have the testimony of Jesus Christ."[/color]
—Revelation 12:15-17

(The "flood" probably symbolizing lies.)