Yes, I'm in the same boat. Am thinking seriously of suicide. Too many things are wrong, that I cannot seem to rise above any of this. I try and if I ever improve, something else seems to occur to pull me down. This has occured for years on end and normally I would have an optimistic outlook, but when things occur too often, it wears the most positive person down.

I'm with you guys all the way, I don't know how to go on like this anymore. My faith in God is waning also. I just feel things have become too much, but at the sametime, not knowing what death is like or what will occur, I have that fear of the ultimate as well as what it would do to my family.

Not sure how to live, yet too scared to die, but I don't wish to go on like this. It's not self pity, it sounds it, but it's pure utter desperation and woudl drive anybody into the same pit I imagine.