You truly are not alone Tracy. I am afraid that I can't put my name on this post in case my partner decides to read (he knows about this forum).

This week must be a crap week in the stars or something I reckon. I am feeling really realy depressed and suicidal since yesterday. I am having a really hard time coping with it at work and I feel really paranoid that everyone at work dislikes me and thinks that I am an idiot. When I get like this I go really quiet at work because I feel lke everything that comes out of my mouth sounds stupid.

Sometimes I feel like it would be so much easier if I just wasn't here anymore. When I feel like this I find it so difficult to stick with the diet. All I want to do is eat crap, drink alcohol and smoke cigarettes. You are not alone Tracy and Alex. Things have to look up for us one day.