Plz email me...I've been fighting my illness for 2 years...and know what you are going through...And there were days I've lost all hope...BUT don't give up....I cry a lot too...but I am starting FINALLY to get better...AND u will too..And you will look back at this some day and realize that all this Pain has made u a better, stronger person...I so know what u are going through....luv Sandra