I have had the worst day of my life i woke up feeling fluey then saw my daughter off to school and felt so tired went back to bed i started to feel really angry and was sobbing uncontrollably then an overwhelming feeling of suicide came on me it was so strong i swear if id had had the means i would have done it i had no control whatsover when keith came home at lunchtime i was still sobbing and started screaming at him that i just couldnt take any more he had to give me some sleeping tablets to put me to sleep so that he could go back to work i dont know whats happening to me i cant control these feelings any more and dont know how much longer i can hang as i have no control over it.