Nicola you sound just like me I am totally confused too the only thing I can figure our is that everyone is effected differently and seems people react to different things in different ways, everyone gives good advice but is based on their individual genetics I get very confused about what to do I know I have to do something because I am very ill now but i get scare to try anything cos Im only just hanging on now I really am going through hell at the moment. Seeing the Neurologist next week is what Im hanging on for and if she was a normal run of the mill NHS Neurologist I wouldnt hold out much hope its only cos shes worked with toxic people before that I hope she can help me cos I cant seem to be able to do this by myself